Madeleine

2012-08-29
15:58:00

Happy Onam:)
 
 
 
 
Today it is the last day of the Kerala Onam celebration! And though they don't celebrate it here in Karnatake, many students, and teachers, here in Manipal are from Kerala. And so the different school committees make sure that the students from Kerala get a hint of some Onam celebration atmosphere:) 
My sweet classmates were trying to explane the story behind the reason for this celebration. And if I got it right it's aboute this king named Mahabali who was a great ruler in Kerala long, long, long time ago. And during Onam they celebrate his arrival to earth with decorating the floor with flowers, and eating delicious food! And everyone wish each other Happy Onam, like we would wish each other Merry Christmas;) And even thou I am not that concerned of this celebration, I understood that there was a lot of homesickness among my classmates today, and I was trying to imagin how it would be if I didn't go home during christmas... I guess I would have had some homesickness aswell...
So, I've desided that I will go home during Christmas!! So you'll all expect My arrival on the 19th of december;) Some flower decorations on the floor, and some delishious food, thanks;)  
 
 
 



 
 
 
 
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2012-08-26
06:41:00

A World Without Nurses...
 
Let's just do this!!
 
 
 
 
 
 

2012-08-25
18:18:00

Once upon a time...
 
I thought of sharing some short movies with you that is making my saturday evening:)
 
And, my chois of topic had to have some connection with school, so I won't get that much bad conscience... 
Today, rIght after school, I took the bus to Udupi to buy some fabric, and gave it to a dressmaker. I just need more clothes soooo bady!! And I was so happy to find the fabric I wanted:)
 
 
 
 

2012-08-23
20:25:13

Books to read, thank you!
 
Today at school we got some pocket articles  that will be useful during or clinical practise:) And we had some fun while checking them out: stethoscope, badge, knee hammer,..
  
We also got some books that some of us had ordered. And so I feel it is time for me to actually stary reading them;) Up on till now I've only been rewriting notes over and over. But that way of studying have only given me pain in my right hand, and confusion on my mind... And I also talked to my roomie, and she gave me some advice! Rule no. one - Start with the subjects you find are the most difficult to understand!! Don't let go of your problems, face them!!
 
I also got an other idea that might speed up my studies even more. If everything goes well at the first session exames (havn't decided the definition of "well" though), I might buy myself a guitarr;)
Cause if there's something I miss, exept my friends and family, that is my guitarr!!
What do you think of that??
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Dagens I-lands problem!
- När läraren inte kan öppna power point-presentationen, och lektionen får ställas in;)
 
 
 

2012-08-20
16:25:00

Irshad Manji
 
Today I had my second day of from school, and during the break from my studies I, for some reason, got a certain person on my mind. I remember I was watching a Skavlan program couple of month ago, and a woman called Irshad Manji was one of the guests. And her statements and way of speaking gave me goosebumps, and a big, big smile on my face!:)
 
 
 
 
Okey,
now I have to go back to my studies...:)
 
 
 

2012-08-19
17:09:56

Freshers Day!
 
Yesterday our seniors held a welcome Freshers Day:) Alot of entertainment with music and showdansing,  and it was interesting to se the indian culture!  Every new student had to introduce themself to the whole Collage, and as the first on our classlist, I had to start. 
In the end the seniors forced some of the first years to do some silly acts. But not thaaaat silly, I must say, easy for me to say when I just hade to sitt and laugh!!
Comepared to the freshers day am used to, this one was a very nice and calme one;)
 Tomorrow we're cellebrating the end of Ramadan, meaning we got TWO DAYS of school which gives me time to study.. and I am soo thankful for that!!
 
If I try to look passed the enormous school work, I am sooo happy to be here!! The atmosphare, the city, the culture, people I meet... It's very different from home, but I feel soo comfortabe:)
 
 This sunday evening Sabina will make my evening by please me with a Skype date!!:)

2012-08-17
20:00:00

Älskade mormor
Idag begravdes mormor på Norra Mellbys kyrkogård. Och jag önskade inget annat än att få vara där för ett sista farväl... Dock skrev jag ett brev som prästen kom att läsa upp under minnesstunden!
Och snart ska jag skypa med mamma och pappa, så jag får höra hur dagen har varit..!
 
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Älskade mormor...  
 
Vi träffades en eftermiddag strax före midsommar, och jag gav dig ett foto utav dig och mig taget under en utflykt till Helsingborg som vi gjorde för några år sedan, bara du och jag mormor. Det kändes alltid lika speciell när vi åkte iväg på våra utflykter tillsammans, och att bara få vara vi två. 
Ansiktena på fotot sade dig ingenting. Och jag jag var inte förvånad. 
Jag målade dina naglar rosa, och du kände doften utav nagellack och log. Jag blev alldeles varm inombord. Du kände igen doften utav nagellack. Och inget gjorde mig så glad som ett tecken på att du mindes. 
Minnen skapas för att kunna hålla kvar de värdefulla känslor och upplevelser man haft tillsammans. Och ditt minnet utav doften av nagellack gav mig ett tecken att du fortfarande var du. 
För trotts din sjukdom har du alltid varit du.  
 
Jag tror att vår största rädsla  i livet är att förlora sitt minne. Men något som du hjälpt mig att komma till insikt med under de senaste åren mormor, är hur vi kan ta till vara på våra minnen genom att hålla dem vid liv. Och hur jag kommer att försöka hålla minnet utav dig vid liv får kommande stunder avgöra. 
Men så länge jag kan avsluta med meningen "så som mormor alltid brukade göra.." så vet jag att jag är på rätt spår.
 
Det mötet före midsommar kom att bli vårt sista. Och det finns inget jag sörjer i det, förutom min egen sorg att inte längre få hålla om dig.
Genom din sjukdom har vi alla gråtit floder utav ledsna tårar; vi har suckat djupt utav hopplöshet; vi har
bitit oss själva i armen utav vrede och frustration; vi har skrattat tills glädjetårar flödat; vi har känt innerlig glädje för varje stund vi fått känna av din närvaro.
Nu har du dock äntligen fått frid i själen, och jag önskade inget annat än att du skulle få just det, frid.
Och som barnbarn fick du oss alltid känna att vi var speciella, och du gav oss den kärlek som en mormor bara ger så där självklart och gränslöst.
Kvar lämnar du ovärderliga minnen som jag lovar att göra mitt bästa i att försöka hålla vid liv...
 
 
 
 
  
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

2012-08-15
16:32:00

Happy Independence day to all Indians:)
 
This morning my roomie and I went to the library to watch the celebration of Indians Independance day!! One Madame was telling aboute the Indian history, and the son of  Dr. T. M. A. Pai (the founder of Manipal University) was speaking aboute the importante thing of education for an even better development in India.
 
On the Indian flag there are three colors - saffron yellow, white and green. And ofcourse there's an explanation of the colors - saffron yellow stand for courage and sacrifice; white stand for peace and truth; and the green stand for destiny. In the centre of the flagg there is a circle with 24 spokes representing the 24 states! Ofcourse thera are also more explanations aboute the flag. Like the three colors would represent the three biggest religions in the country - Hinduism, Christianity and Islam. And the circle would be the hindus circle of life, chakra.
 
During the celebration this day they also have a march competition! And sins we're in Manipal the competition is among the colleges! And I believe College of Nursing got some kind of price...;)
When the celebration was aboute to end the rain started to fall, and so we went to get some Masala Dosa for brunch, and Sonia offered some Gulab Jamud for dessert;)
 
   
 
 
 After that I havn't done much more than to study today...
I find It hard sometimes, and it takes time for me to read through it all, and mostly because of my non fluent english... So I end up sitting with the dictionary on my phone trying to find all important words (thank you soooo  much for the phone dad!!)
 
I was told that my grandma managed her surgery extremely well,  and I feel much more calm!!:)
 
Now some food before my other date with the physiology notes will start;)
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

2012-08-12
08:50:09

Skypedates, and another bomb...
 
So, finally saturday, and school finished at 4pm... I was so relieved when I exit the classroom...
 
Finally I bought a text book that I guess will be my bibel this year...microbiology..
I also went to pick up my new needled ....the new favourites in my wardrobe:)
 
After some studies I went home to do some skyping!! Fix me up with a skypedate, and you'll make my day!:)
 
After some struggles though, I finally got to talk with my parents!! And it was really nice to see them! My brother is in Stockholm attending the JSM (Junior Swedish Championship)..
We talked aboute my school and how everything had been at home considering my grandmothers departure... They told they had been talking with the priest, and the funeral will be on the 17th august.
They also told me aboute a small daytrip they all had done, including my grandfather, using the summercard by taking the train around Skåne and down to Ystad!: They felt they had to get away for a while after everything that has happen. And it really made me happy to hear that they seemed to handle it all very well!!:) 
 
But then they suddenly droped another, small bomb aboute my fathers mother...
For a while she's been feeling a node in her chest, but the thing  with grandma is that she's the kind of person that don't like to bother anyone, and to make people worried. So, with a very simple act called defence mechanism she hasn't told anyone, not even a doctor, until aboute one month ago. But only God knows for how long she's been denying the fact that something has been troubling her...
But so she found out that it is breast cancer...
My parents got the chance to talk some sense into her, and on tuesday she will go through the surgery to get rid of it all. And the day after the surgery my parents will go to visit her at the hospital..
I didn't make much of a reaction when they told me aboute it. I was surprised, ofcours. But I believe my enrage of the way my grandma is acting replaced my saidness...
I am sad. But I am also very angry. Her way of handling things with the thought of protecting her nearest and dearest,..making the reverse...
 
Why is it sometimes so difficult to share your problems with your loved once?? Isn't that one of the reasons why we want them, and the reason we are there for each othe??
You might call it an egoistic thought of wanting someone close to share your own problems with. But if the love is answered, if your love, your friend or relative loves you, ofcours they want to be there to support you and share your sorrows...
 
Grandma, the very loving, brave, strong and stubborn grandma as I know you,..  I know you love us, and I really love you...so pleeeease let us be there with you to share your thoughts and feelings.
You might be old, but you're strong. I think of you, and I wish everything will turn out well on tuesday morning...
 
 
 
 
 

2012-08-10
21:37:52

Raindrops keep falling on my head...
 
I just can't help it. Every time the rain starts to fall I have to sing that sweet and silly, little melody...:) The monsoon is in it's peak!! It keeps raining ALL THE TIME!!
 
After a lot of studies I was just looonging for a nice work out.. And so I took my umbrella and went to  the gym at Marena. The most enoying thing with bringing your umbrella around the campus is that they won't allow the umbrellas inside any public areas as the sport arena or at the library... So, before entering the Marena, we kindly have to leave them on the very convenient "umbrella hooks". 
And so the gym was aboute to close and I was on my way out to head back home, someone had taken my very own umbrella....:( And the rain was pooooring... 
The only choice left was for me to wait for a rickshaw. But then I though... I'll have to take a shower anyhow.. So, why waste rupies on an auto..
And so I took my bag and head out in the pooring rain, jumping in the pools and had a blast!!    
 
 
 
 
Tomorrow finally saturday, and last day in school for this week... looking forward to my computer sciense class!
 
Sweet dreams to all of you:)
 
 
 
 
 

2012-08-07
15:50:28

A river of knowledge!!
 
Today the sky is the color of grey... And so it recembles a face of a certain teacher in a subject which I used to really like. But now,.. she's KILLING IT!!
After her class I got so irritated and the only thing I was able to hear, as an echo in my head, was her words of "you need to write faster",..  
Why do some teachers get permission to theach evern if they shouldn't?!
 
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I bought some more notebooks to be able to get a better organisatin among all the notes you get after every class. And that's what am gonna go right now... rewright the notes after that hoooorrrrrible class....
 
 
 
India has the best rain!:)
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

2012-08-06
20:18:55

Första Riktiga skoldagen
 
Today we had our first REAL day at school starting with two classes of Nursing Foundation, English and then lunch. Microbiology, Physics and Kannada followed there after. I believe I got a kind of good hint of which classes I'll be enjoying the  most! Nursing Foundation is the basic subject at the college and because of that it is also an very interesting subject:) The teacher in English also gave me a god impression, and mostly because of his very well spoken english accent;) Kannada (the mother tongue in Karnataka) will just be a lot of fun! But please, microbiology...
 
And after a long day with the task of just feeding your brain with information, I still had enough energy to get more than half of my assignment done for or next english class NEXT WEEEK!! Very good indeed, Madeleine!!;)
 
This evening I had dinner with my roomie, Sonia, and her boyfriend! She wanted me to meet him before he goes back to the states next weekend. And after dinner at a very nice restaurant, and a couple of questions later among with most of the answers (her boyfriend was very good at asking questions) I went just straight (almost) to bed...
 
 
 
 
 
 

2012-08-05
12:05:20

Mormor
 
Mormor, vad hände?
Ingen vet.
Ingen vet vad som hände i ditt stilla sinne.
Ingen vet hur dina tankar snurrade där du satt vid köksbordet och tittade ut genom fönstret. Kände du igen grannarna som vinkade till dig? Eller vinkade du bara tillbaka i artighet?
När vänner hälsade på dig, var ansiktena kända, möjligen bekanta, eller var dem nya för dig varje gång?
När jag märkte att du inte längre lyssnade på vad jag sade, och ditt ansikte blev frågande, vilse i blicken - vad var det som plötsligt hände?
När det ända du ville var att komma hem, fastän du redan var hemma - vad fattades?
När du hällde upp frysta grönsaker på kakfatet - hur tänkte du? 
När du vankade fram och tillbaka, plockade och pysslade i din ensamhet - vad tänkte du på?
 
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Genom din sjukdom har vi alla gråtit floder utav ledsna tårar; vi har suckat djupt utav hopplöshet; vi har bitit oss själva i armen utav vrede och frustration; vi har skrattat tills glädjetårar flödat; vi har känt innerlig glädje för varje stund vi fått känna av din närvaro.
Och som regnet plötsligt slår till under monsunperioden, slog något till under din sömn och avslutade ditt liv här på jorden. Men det var alzheimern tog dig ifrån oss, och när ditt minne sakta började vackla med tiden försvann du..
Någonstans vill jag känna att du inom dig var otroligt medveten om vad som hände omkring dig, med dig och inom dig. Du hade bara inte kontrollen över det. 
Nu har du dock äntligen fått frid, och trotts alla tårar som runnit ner från mina kinder så önskade jag dig inget annat än att du skulle få just det, frid. 
Och som alla samtal du alltid tog så god tid på dig att avsluta, fick också dina kära omkring dig tid för att säga adjö i processen utav din sjukdom.
 
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Jag minns hur lång tid det alltid tog att lägga på luren efter att du ringt då du alltid tog god tid på dig att avsluta ett samtal:"var rädd om dig", "ring om det är något", "ring när du kommit hem/fram", "vi hörs igen", "hejdå med dig", "hej då, hej.." - som om varje avsked vore ett sista. Nu saknar jag inget mer än just de långa avsluten på samtalen.     
Du glömde aldrig ens namnsdag, och ringde alltid och gratulerade!
Din klädgarderob var vår lekplats, och vi älskade att klä ut oss i dina kläder, klackskor och linda dina stora, färgglada sjalar om oss. På somrarna när vi lekte i Trollebo kom du alltid ut med saft och hembakade bullar fint upplagt på kakfatet.
Prydnadstomtarna vi fick varje julafton... Kläderna du köpt till oss efter dina bussresor till Ullared... 
När våren kom och vitsipporna blommade på backen var det ett måste att tillsammans gå ut i skogen och plocka ett fång.
Så många minnen...
 
Som barnbarn fick du oss alltid känna att vi var speciella, och du gav oss den kärlek som en mormor bara ger så där självklart och gränslöst.. 
 
Självklar och gränslös kärlek till dig...
 
 
 
Vila i frid, mormor!
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

2012-08-04
21:16:51

Saturday, and a lot of shopping!!
 
Saturday is a half day at school, and because of that it is also an happy day;) 
Today at school we selected our representatives for every committee. And me, myself, raised the hand for being a represent for the editorial committee:)
After school my roomie, Sonia, and I took the bus to Udupi to do some shopping! And we (or me!!) really did some shopping!!! Bought some fabric so I could get some pants needled:)
 
You know I wrota aboute the south indians way of eating with their hands?
Well, this day Sonia took me to a nice restaurant, with good hygiene, for doing that!;) You really want your first time to be special, right?
 
 
 
 
Came home a couple of hours later, watched "Catch me if you can", now of to bed, and this was my saturday!
 
How was yours?:)
 
 
 
 
 

2012-08-02
17:15:07

Tired as...
 
First day at school, and I believe it started out really nice! But ofcours if was just a lot of information, and before lunch we had a walking tour around the campus area. We also got measured to get fitting uniforms for our practical class at the clinic.
There are aboute 70 students in our class, and of them seven guys. Most of them recently finished twelfth class, meaning that most of them just turned 18!  So yea, I feel a bit old... But the girls I talked to were all very sweeeeet, and had a lot of questiond;)
After lunch I had to go to the Police office in Udupi to do my foreign registration, which took a while. And when I got home I was sooo tired and fell a sleep in my bed..
 
Now am sitting here,.eating fruit salad, (the fruits taste just amazing!!) watching short movies...
It'll be a early evening...
 
 
"Instead of searching outside for help, search within for guidance"
- Dr. T.M.A Pai
(founder of Manipal University)
 

2012-08-02
09:18:09

First day at schoooool!!
 
Good morning!
Today I have my first day at schoool!!! And I thought of sharing todays outfit for my very special day:) 
 
 
 
Suitable enough I hope,.. The only thing that is missing is the churida
Tihi:)
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

2012-08-01
18:03:12

Orientation day...
 
Today we had our orientation day for B.Sc and P.Bc Nursing along with parents and sponsors. And it was an long and tired day with a lot of information... But after the day I was very much aware of the do's and dont's..
- DO NOT ENTER THE ARABIC SEA!!
- CURFUES AT THE HOSTELS, SPECIAL ONES FOR FIRST YEARS STUDENTS.
- DEAR PARENTS, PLEASE DON'T GIVE YOUR CHILDREN TO MUCH AMOUNT OF MONEY, ONLY WHAT THEY NEED.
- PARENTS TELL YOUR CHILDREN TO BE IN THE HOSTEL AT 10 pm SO THEY WILL GET THE AMOUNT OF SLEEP THAT THEY NEED.
Do I have to tell that I really felt like a first year student?;)
 
I also got to meet some nice people! I didn't talk to any from my class though, but I'll meet them tomorrow.
After the orientation and lunch with an post graduant, I had a really good stomacfeeling that am gonna enjoy my studytime here:) Later this day I took a walk in the city. The weather today has been very sunny and with some refreshing winds every now and then! But I know I am the only here one enjoying the sun;) 
 
The sport arena where I'll be shaping my body;)        The hostel I am staying at..... 
 
..and the library - told to be the largest Health&Science library in Asia, and very impressiv:)
 
 Sweeeet dreaaams:)