My first SC injection
I gave my first subcutaneour injection today!! It was only an insulin injection, but still.
Here they don't give insulin in a already loaded injection pen  into the stomach as we do it back home, but you have to load it directly from a virel into the syringe, and then they give it in the arm.
Everything went fine until I was going to insert it, and I started to shake!! And I could see EVERYONE was watching and pointing out that I was shivering, as that would have made my shaking stop or what?! But afterwards it was fine, and I believe some small tension is needed. As long as you don't show it. But wtf... people who know me knows that I have difficulties in hiding feelings if they really are present!!
What to do...


"O fortuna", or just a dream?!
I didn't get much sleep last night due to an unbelivable storm that was going on whole night long, or was someone playing O fortuna from Carmina Burana?!
I felt as the the lightening would hit the hostel bulding at any time. And when I was lying in bed listening to the sound of the rain that was hitting against the window, the noice from the thunder with no eningd and  watching the lightening I could only think of that Carmina Burana concert I participated in with my gymnasium;)
Today we came to a new ward - medical, female, ward! It's a big ward, and alot of medicine and injections is given, so I better take the chance to give injections now that I can!!


Today I learned something...
I know it's been a long time since my last contribution. And I appologize. But I beleve one of the reasons why I havn't written anything might be that I am getting use to the environment and most of the things is not new to me any more. And so I feel there is not much new to share...
But today I have.
I leared something today. And it's not that I don't learn new things every day, because I do. Every day some new knowledge is ment to be learned, and some part of it actually goes in to my long time memory;) With exceptance to psychology...;)
Our clinicals started two weeks ago, and I've been posted on the cancer ward. Ther is not many procedures to do, but you learn a lot just by listening to the doctors discussion about choice of suitable treatments and progress that has been seen in the clients. 
The worst case I've seen was a guy with an buccal mucosa carcinoma in 4th stage. It had stared to ulcerate leaving a concave hole about 5cm in diameter. And during a cleaning procedure (I was only washing but wow what I would have want to do the job) four thick, little cute worms appeared in the ulcer of which two of them jumped out on the floor..!!
We did our routinely BP-check today in the morning, and one of the clients was about to start his first chemotherapy. After the staff nurse had started the treatment she asked me to check his BP, and I told her I already had, 20 min ago. But no, I had to check again after the chemo started. And after been checking a lot of BP's already, including a re-checks, you tend to get a don't know...cranky?! Thinking why I should do it again.. Ok you could call me lazy!
And so I did, getting a small incriase from 120/80 to 130/80. Five minutes later the staff nurse asked if I had checked the BP at the same time as she went for the BP apparatus. The clinet was getting into an anaphylactic shock, BP was found at 150/100, and the medication was stoped immediately followed by anti-injection. The client looked exhaused and was seating like crazy,
We nursing students decided to stay back while, in my head, milions of questions were asked to myself - did I get the right BP? Didn't I noticed change of his apperance? Or wasn't there change in his apperande while I was there?
Three things I learned today 
1) The importance of monitoring vital signs. Change in any vital sign is the first indication that something is going one in your body.
2) How fast any changes could happen with a person.
3) Even how crusty and moody the staff nurse may be, she still know more than you and is the reason why the client was able to manage the situation. Listen to her, and learn...
 A smiiilllee for todays nurse that was handeling the situation exemplary!!!:)


Computer sciense..
A month has passed sinse I started to take part in this "experiment" by do these breathing exercises every day to see how it will affect dysmenhorrea. And during the month I forgott to do it for five days.
So, my period came yesterday and I told my teacher who came overy to check my bp. Not much of change was there to see. But I must say that the pain is much lesser than before!! I remember that I've always had some pain during the menstruation, more or less, sometimes making me sjust wanna stay home from work or school and lie down on my bed doing nothing but trying to sleep and whishing the pain would go away when I wake up.
A friend of mine says that she doesn't have any pain at all. And was asking why that was so..?! My answer whould karma?! A devils punishment from my past life?! 
I will do my best to continue my breathing exercises:)
Today, sunday, I am trying to finish my oh- sooo-unneccessary but still compulsory computer assignments that takes nothing but uneccessary time from valuable study time of other more needed sudjects. Yesteday I wrote a "exercise exam" in nutrition which gave me a little bit of confidence though, thinking that I don't have to study much more to manage that subject (peppar peppar ta i trä).


I'm Ill...
Yesterday I went to bed with a feeling that something wasn't hundred percent with my body, difficult to know what actually was missing.. and I ended up with no sleep what so ever, sweating like a pig and yea.. unbalanced bowelmovents..
So today I decided to stay home from school feeling like a old woman with body ache and no energy what so ever...
Now am sitting infront of "The Bid Bang Theory" trying to ingest a delicious lemon coriander soup wishing there was someone who pity me...;)


To at least try to understand..