I hate going to the hairdresser!!

I just realized it today - I hate going to the hairdresser!! I just can't stand it!!
There's nothing wrong while they're doing the hair wash, or giving a nice head massage. It's about the time when they take out their scissor and start cutting my hair.
So yea, maybe that's the reason why it was 1½ year ago since last time I went there.
Today I finally understood why.
I don't have much problem of dying my hair for some reason. That doesn't touch my back. You pic a colour that you like, and then you just wish that it's going to end up in the similar colour that you chose.
But after every haircut I just get this uncomfortable feeling, keep touching my hair, feeling that something is missing while I pull the fingers through my hair. And then, when you want to do your hair the way you used to do it before the hair cut, and you CAN'T, cause the HAIR IS TOO SHORT!!
And yea, I kind of like the feeling of ruff and untidy hair..;)
I've started to wonder how this might be connected with the fact that I don't like the process of changes in life that I don't have any control over. Changes that takes place in your life on a daily basis.
But there's a different weather you're the one making the change or someone else does it for you. Cause, when you're sitting with your head and hair under the scissor, you're the one without control. You try giving them the best explanation of how you want it. But it rarely/never turn out the way you want it. But then again, is it because you were happy with what you had before, and actually didn't want to get a hair cut? And then, social rules tells you that you should do it every now and then?
But in the end, it's just hair that is going to grow out again..
Peace & Love everyone:)

Parcel from sweden!

I wrote the Medical Surgical Nursing exams today. And yea, it didn't go that well so am already mentally prepared to write it again in autumn. My gosh so many things to study for one exam...
However, I got a parcel from home today, unexpectedly, which turned my day into a better one:)
I got some newspaper, "Ahlgrens bilar",a bracelet supporting the Child Cancer Foundation, and a picture of me as a child standing next to the midsummer pole at my grandparents place!
The parcel, and everything it contained, couldn't have come in any better time than today, considering the present situation...
Thanks you mom & dad for the parcel!! Skype with you soon:)
Love you (''v''')


Timbuktu has a quote from his song "Känn Pepp" (means something like "Feel energized") where he sings
"I don't want someone that I can live with I want someone that I can't live without".
I just looove that quote. After that lyric got cought in my head, I always had it in my thought that That is the kind of person I want to have in my life. A person that I just can't live without. No matter physical distance, whatever happens in each others lives, for better, for worse. 
Call it madness; call it craziness,; call it stupidity; call it call it love.
I came to know the true feeling of that words.
Life is the greatest teacher.
You live it and you learn from it.
Can't live with you; can't live without you...