Clinicals tomorrow

I never, ever thought, not even in my wildest imagination, that I would have to wear this again, my clinical dress.
Beautiful na?
If you only knew the amount of torture I've gone through wearing that.
But no, to be fair, there's been more good times than bad times while wearing it. Amazing meeting with patients, interesting discussions and learning moments, kids have been born and held preciously. Mentally challenged children have huged it and pulled in it. Blood have been splashed on it. Inc have leaked on it. It has become soaking wet during a typical Indian rain season and during a typical humid weather when a fan have not been enough to keep you from sweating like a pig.
I do wear it with pride☺

Do you believe in horoscope?

Good morning friends and loved ones:)
I red the horoscope online today, and it said: 
"Take your time! The direction your life is taking is more evident to you but, unfortunately, other aspects are as blurry as ever. You're in the process of major internal transformation, dear Leo, and it isn't always easy. You'll have to tolerate feeling lost and unstable for a while. In the end, you'll be all the more blessed for having experienced this difficult time".
Oh goosh, the horoscope couldn't explain it better than this. 
So, now it's been a few days ago since I came back to Manipal, and I feel I'm about to loose it.
My mind is all over the place, and I can't put focus on anything else but what I should NOT do. 
I sleep, I make food, I go for walks, I watch the news, I take long showers, I watch nonsens on youtube, I drink coffee like crazy...everything else exept studying.. I started reading some old notes yesterday, but that's as far as I've come. My head is spinning with worries about everything else but the exam, and I have to push myself out of bed every morning to get the day started. Somewhere I KNOW it's just a phase in life, but what if it never ends? This morning I even woke up with stomach cramps...woooho:)
Or am I just missing my bf...:/
I do believe that the moon and our solar system affect us people and our way of feeling and behaving to a certain extent. And if not, it's just a fun reading!
Take good care of one another:)

What plans has the Universe already made for us?

 Hej och hallå vänner☺
 It's been a while since I wrote, I guess almost 9 months. 
Yea, I'm still living in incredible India with my incredible man in Manipal, and we've been traveling back and forth Manipal since last year, lived in Goa during season time, planning the future, met obstaobstatricls on the way and overcome them.
We're planning to come to Sweden this summer and so Sadu had to apply for visa which got denied the first time. This hit us both very hard emotionally. But we told each other to give it another try, since the reason for denying the visa was very vaguely explained.
India is a very bureaucratic country, as I've probably mentioned before, and it wouldn't surprise us that they just denied it just so they could get another 5000Rs in their pocket...incredible India..
After the application we finally traveled up north to Himachel Pradesh - mostly to enjoy the wonderful mountains, trekking etc. But to also assess and help out a project work in Kasol.
And so when we had spent about a week in Parvati valley I called my college to confirm payment and date of my exam, and so I came to know that I also had a practical exam to do. A practical exam I already passed last year. Apparently, if you fail in your theory exam, which I did with 5 MARKS, one have to do the 6 houre long and mentally challenging practical exam aswell, again. I totally broke down in tears, anger and frustration. And so I just had to abruptly end our travel and other plans and head back to Manipal, leaving my bf in the beautiful mountains. It was not easy to go back. I'm still in "chock" and feeling down, as if I'm on the edge of crying any time..
So, this last two months have not been very easy, but I guess as life in general gives you challenges to overcome and become stronger in the end.
We both have discussed the challenges we've faced, and questioned the believe we both have, what plans We make and the plans The Universe have already made for us. And when it works against us, the greater challenge comes to accept certain things that happens in life. Cause in the end, we can't do more than trying.
I wanna look back at life and say that "I did it", "I tried and did my best" and that "I don't regret a single thing of the choices I made".
With love